My turn to blog..

I'm not good at blogging. I'm not. All day I've been reading blogs and they are so good. I'm not good at it.... BUT I want one. So there- I have a blog. I think what keeps me from setting up a blog is how do you "set up" who you are to people. Is it the typical- "Hi I'm Krista. I'm 23 yrs old (24 in 11 days) I'm a medical assistant. I've been working at that dead end job for 4 years. I'm also a licensed massage therapist. I'm married to Tom. We've been married 290 days. This July we'll have been together for 9 years. He's 24. He's a bowling pro shop manager. He's great. He always makes me laugh. He's my best friend"-? Ok enough of that stuff.

Lets get to the real point of my blog. I'd say it's about my journey to have a baby. We started TTC last August. I got a +HPT on Dec 8, 2007. It was a great feeling! On New Years Eve we were able to see our little one. Heart Rate 122! I had some spotting leading up to that ultrasound. I was trying to ignore it- after the ultrasound I figured it was nothing. Within a week my "brown spotting" had turned "RED HEAVY". I called the OB on call on Jan 6, crying my head off with worry. He said they'd bring me in for an ultrasound the next day. So I called in the morning and they scheduled my ultrasound for 11am. I took Tom with me. He thought I was being silly & everything would be fine. He just knew it. Later he'd look at me with tears running down his cheeks saying "I can't believe you were right" So we waited about an hour and a half before we were called back for the ultrasound. First she tried an abdominal ultrasound- which I figured was kind of silly. So then she switched to pelvic. I knew something was wrong. There was the same image on the screen- only... nothing was moving. NOTHING. No heart beat... she paged the doctor in. He told me what I already knew. Fast forward a day I had a D&C on Jan 8, 2008. The whole experience was the hardest thing I've ever gone through.

Side Note- I'm sure it all happens for a reason. Though it's such a cliche statement. On the Nest I've made some of the best friends ever. All in different stages of this whole journey. Friends who were there during the TTC process, friends during the Loss process, friends who've been there through all the processes and continue to be there! Love you gals! =)

Trying for a baby........ TAKE 2!!!

So after the D&C, my period arrived 35 days later. And after 1 cycle... I'm now due with a Thanksgiving Baby! I'm due the day before Thanksgiving 11/26! =) I SOOO hope this our sticky baby.

I don't know if it's because I'm SO busy packing to move (We're closing on a house on the 31st!!!) or I'm just so more calm this time. Last time I was SO paranoid. Paranoid constantly of having a miscarriage. Currently I feel so good about everything. I'm very calm. Not nervous. Not worried. I hope this means everything is going great! =)

So I've been off work today. I met my Mom for lunch at Roly Poly. Mmm...tasty. This afternoon I've been watching America's Next Top Model & *trying* to pack. I'm tired of packing but can NOT wait to move into our new home. Now I'm getting ready to go bowling. I'm on a team with my Mom & a friend of hers. My Mom won't be there tonight- she's sick.

I'm kind of irritated with the house issue currently. CountryWide (the seller) wants to close on the 31st. Told their realtor they were going to accept our offer- but need 3 days to "officially" accept our offer. That was last THURSDAY. We need to get a home inspector & get everything ready between Wednesday and MONDAY. This is insane.

Good news- I'm off work tomorrow too! =) woohoo!

Well- I have to straighten up "Box Hell" before I leave. Otherwise Tom will be coming home to find a maze to his bed.

Sincerely, Krista